Changes in the Wind

Ever have that moment where you are just sitting on the couch and have so much swirling in your head that you feel like it's going to explode?

Yeah. That's me tonight.

So I decided to write. Whatever comes out, comes out. :)

There is so much going on, so much to say, so much to think. It's very overwhelming.  We have a lot going on here on the home front.  Too much.  It's making me somewhat of an emotional mess.

On the plus side I did get to take the kiddo to a new psychologist this past Monday.  I took him to an Autistic focused clinic that is known for its residential treatment program.  I'm not putting him in residential treatment, its just known for that and has some top notch specialists.  That's exactly what we need...

The office was two hours away but lets face it, I'd drive to California if I needed to.  It was nice. We sat there with the intake psych for 2 hours covering absolutely everything you can think of, going over every detail of our lives, from structure to sensory needs to sleep to behaviors to you name it.  She asked great appropriate questions. She really took her time with us.

In early April we get to go meet with the psychiatrist there, discuss his current meds, and figure out the outpatient treatment plan.  I'm really hopeful that we will be able to finally get somewhere and get this kiddo the help he needs.  I'm so tired of watching my son struggle like this.  He shouldn't be.  He's such a happy, well loved child with so much going for him.  I will write more about this process later.

The influx of appointments and dedicated needs for him is absorbing a lot of time.  As many of you know, I returned to full time work not too long ago.  I made the painful and tough decision last week to withdraw from that.  My job has been really fantastic with the transition and since it is with the Federal government at the local VA hospital, they are able to make the accommodations I need and are allowing me to become intermittent.  So I will be able to work a couple of pre-scheduled days a week.  This will allow me to have the flexibility to do what I need for my son.  There are so many phone calls and appointments to be had when you are trying to get things set right!  I will sub at the local schools to fill in the voids.

It seems like a lot, right?  The plus side to this is that since Sparky now rides the bus every morning and every afternoon he won't see the variance in my schedule.  Considering how well (not!) he does with the craziness this is a really great thing.  Everything will stay the same for him, stay consistent.  It's my world that will go nuts! :)

Of course, he will notice when he wakes up and I'm still here in the morning (I presently leave around 7am for work and he's usually asleep at that time).  He will no doubt enjoy that. I know I will!

In the long run it's all for Sparky and that's what gets me through all of this.  He is my focus, as he should be.

This change in schedule will also hopefully allow me to get back to running again.  I could use the movement as it really helps with my migraines.  They are a little out of control right now.  It will no doubt do wonders for my own mental health and what is left of my sanity... ;)  Then I can create my game plan to get the kiddo out with me.  On his scooter of course. :)

So many changes going on around here.  In the long run, it is what is best.  I just have to keep reminding myself of that. I've said it before, and I will say it again in closing: We adjust, we adapt, we overcome. :)